Ok so I’m officially wondering if I’m doing the right thing with my life? Well this year…
Choosing to stay at uni and do a masters seemed like the right move for me and somthing I’ve planned on from the start. However, it just seems to be a continuous epic struggle to keep up with the brainiacs in my class! When it comes to life I’m pretty competitive, except when it comes to academic things. In my mind it’s always been important to achieve to the best of my ability and not worry about everyone else. But this class are crazy, they’re not happy until they’ve beaten their designated enemy by a couple of marks and they don’t seem to hold back in letting each other know. It’s just a little overwhelming and I’m pretty sure if I don’t step up my game asap I’m going to become the “as long as I beat K” theory.
It’s that or quit and I really don’t wanna be the girl that couldn’t hack it! I’ve given up way to much by staying on, mainly financial freedoms. And yeah I know money isn’t the be all and end all but it does have a huge impact on how you live you life and I’m pretty sure C has had enough of me relying on him getting the food in! I even tried to just not eat for a couple of days so that he wasn’t having to pay for the 2 of us all the time. But that led to an awful essay which I had to rewrite before I handed it in, a headache and no energy for cheer practice!
It’s just getting a little overwhelming and definately stressful!
So if anyone knows of a fairy godmother, the winning numbers for the lottery or any other money making schemes give a girl a break ;) Atleast that way I can focus on my work at the library instead of any overtime I can get at the bore office (which is exactly where I am now)!
